Friday, 14 February 2014

Valentines Day

What an unapplicable holiday to me. I'm single and I'm starving myself. HA.

111.25 today. I thought I was gunna gain today cuz I had popcorn pretty late last night. So a bit of a pleasant surprise there.

I'm all done my exams! I passed all of my American boards exams... but I have to wait for 4-6 weeks for results from the Canadian ones. I think it'll be fine though. They didn't feel like I failed. I start work this Tuesday. Finally! I'm going stir crazy over here.

I am worried that I'm used to doing nothing all day and it's going to be really hard to get back into working. But I guess we will see. I bought new scrubs too :) A light pastel blue set, a wine colored set, and a pair of black bottoms and a red top with black strips down the side. Pretty cuuuute :)

So. I gotta talk about Creepy Texty Boy. So I met him ONE time. Actually I don't even think it counts. I was talking to someone else and he just kinda interjected and introduced himself. So whatever. 2 minutes of actual interaction.

So he adds me on facebook. Uhhhhh ok I guess.

He messages me. I ignore it. He messages me again. And again. I ignore them.

He texts me (I did NOT give him my number.... and my listed number is the house phone). So I text him back to be nice (stupid...)

"Hey Ace! How's it going? It's CTB here!"

"Oh hey, going good. Just busy studying :)"

"Oh cool! Hey what are you doing Thursday or Saturday night??? Want to go out??"

"Sorry I can't. I'll be out of town writing my exams all weekend."

"Oh. Well how about this Wednesday? Does that work?"

"No I'm sorry I'm leaving for a different city Tuesday. I have exams on Wednesday too and won't be back till the evening."

"Oh ok! Seems like you have lots of exams. When are you done?"

"I have like 10 and I had to split them up so I'm pretty tied up for the next few weeks."

"Oh so the next couple of weeks you think? Tell ya what. I'll call you in two weeks and then we will celebrate you being done together. How's that sound?"

":)" (No lie. I sent the non committal smiley face)

So the time goes by and he likes all my photos and statuses... and sends me multiple texts I ignore 

Hey! How's it going? 

Hey how are the tests going?

Hey how many more tests do you have?



Hey what's up?

The morning of February 12th comes. I write my final two exams. I did awesome. I'm the first one in my class to be board certified in two countries. *happy dance*

I facebook post. Cryptically. I put something like "Done done done done done. And also done. #done #dustsoffhands"

INSTANTLY he has commented on my post, liked it, sent me a facebook private message AND texted me. BANG BANG BANG. At 11 in the morning. On a WEDNESDAY. Who the hell with an actual schedule is on facebook at 11 in the morning on a Wednesday? And how did he see my post so fast? Does he have my stuff put on his alerts so he sees EVERYTHING?? I went ahead and read the private message so he could see that I read it and hadn't responded.

So he counters by inviting me to play the FB game <3crush<3 (complete with hearts)

.... I can't. Too much. TOO MUCH people.

Yikes. He was inviting me to go to this church event tomorrow (kind of a valentine's thing without the pressure of being an actual couple. Whatever. It's still valentines.) And in my head I'm like nooooooo...... Never.

So hopefully I can avoid him today. And tomorrow. And forever.

In other news. I think my little brother is my Valentine today. :) He's gunna take me for Steak Dinner at the Keg and I think I'm gunna give him some much needed girly advice. My plan is to eat light today and have a side dressing salad, top sirloin with grilled veggies and prawns and pass on dessert. The whole shebang shouldn't rack me up much more than 500 cals. Which IS a lot... but hey. It's all healthy stuff and it'll be fine. That's life. If I'm heavy tomorrow then I detox. I made him a big pan of sugar cookie bars last night. Half with vanilla buttercream and half with nutella buttercream.... but it's super awesome buttercream with two ounces of cream cheese in it. Just to make it that much more delicious.

Anyways. I better get going on this day. Happy Valentine's lovelies. Have wonderful days.



Thursday, 6 February 2014

GW 2: reached.

I actually got to gw 2 a day or so ago... Yay me! 111.75 today. My thighs don't touch anymore... Thank goodness. Since gaining back some weight they were touching at the top when I put my feet together... It was driving me insane. Sooooo uncomfortable. So yay for thigh gap :) they are still not as straight as I want yet but hopefully in a few more pounds they will be.

So that puts me a little less than 6 pounds from my lowest sustained weight (106).. I hope when I get there it's enough. Something tells me it won't be. It's not too hard to maintain 106. Any lower and yep. It sucks. But maybe with some of the dietary changes I've made it will be easier than before. I'd like my bmi to be an even 17.0 which is 105.5 lbs for my height. I'll just keep going doing what I'm doing and see when I start to plateau. What I'd actually love is..... Double digits. But I don't know if I have the control to get there. It's fun to think about though.

Yesterday I went up north to write two of my board certification exams. I'm writing American and Canadian ones so that clocks me in at 10 highly stressful exams. I passed the two yesterday just fine... 8 to go! We leave today for the weekend. We are staying in a really nice hotel and are gunna make a weekend out of it :) 

I write one exam tomorrow morning and 5 on Saturday (eeeek!!!) I think the best idea is to just do little snacks to keep my brain working that day. 

Breakfast: 110 cals of oatmeal with sweetener.
Snack: 0% Greek yogurt (80)
Lunch: small whole wheat pita stuffed with veggies and lean meat (250)
Snack: Apple (80)
LOTS of caffeine. And water.

So that puts me at 520 at 5 pm. Then we will probably get some supper or go to a movie. I can easily get away with eating around 250-300 no matter where we go. I feel like 1000 cals a day isn't a lot until I surf around on the internet and find all the pro Ana forums with girls eating like what I eat for breakfast in a whole day!!... Fatty central over here. Sheesh.

Also on the checklist: I want to go to the Harry Potter exhibit again!! I've been once but I'm dying to go back. I also need to go to the sugar free store and get some more peanut flour... I swear I live off that stuff. And some sugar free flavored syrup. 

I need to drop off my grad fee and gown rental too. Convocation is in May and I'm really excited :)

Joined the gym. Man am I ever weak. I have this problem where I will lift weights till my arms are too tired to physically do any more... But the next day I'm not very sore. I do lots of different machines so variation isn't an issue. I worry that it means I'm not building muscle... I'll have to research it more and report back. 

Anyway. I better get packed up. We are aupposed to leave after lunchtime today. I should have been studying instead of writing this... But it's been a whole since I've posted anything worth reading at all. Not that this is ├╝ber exciting or anything but hey what can you do.

Things I still need to write about: creepy fb texty boy, measurements, Hawaii thoughts, what I'm reading. 



Saturday, 1 February 2014

I had a cup of homemade chili with skim cheese and two huge plates of green salad with a drizzle of diet dressing for lunch today..... 

.... I'm not sure how that's gunna go over. I feel massive.