Monday, 3 December 2012

UGW. Reached?

104.75 on MY scale today. Which means I've reached my UGW.

I'm not going to count it unless it's at least two days in a row. Could be just a funny water balance or something.

My roommate works at Curves, and they have one of those body fat calculators. Like the ones that you put in your height and weight and then grip the sides of the wheel-thing?... Yeah. I've never heard of them either.

Apparently my body fat is 12.8%... seems low for what I see in the mirror. My thighs don't touch at all now anymore, I suppose that is good. I dunno. I still feel about the same.

My clothes are almost all too loose, even my thin jeans are starting to look a little ridiculous.

My mom and dad are a little worried I think. My mom says that I better not lose anything else by Christmas... She's threatened to weigh me. I already lied about how much I weigh to her. She thinks I'm  about 7 lbs heavier than I am. And my dad kinda got horrified when he hugged me (You're so freaking skinny...)

Honestly, I don't really WANT to lose any more weight by Christmas. Too much pressure to stay down. But the problem is I don't know how to maintain. I either go up or I go down. I want to just STAY. I'd even be happy at 106.

I don't even think I eat that different than how I used to... like when I was 10 lbs heavier.

Breakfast: Oatmeal and Unsweetened Almond Milk
Lunch: Big Salad with Extra Lean Taco Beef and Refried Bean (or another meat)
Supper: Same as Lunch, or Stir Fry. Or I'll sub a dessert. Like a piece of leftover cake... Sometimes popcorn and melted chocolate.

Lots of water. Lots of diet soda. If I have cake I usually puke some of it up. Sometimes I have both dinner AND dessert... but in that case I purge at least a little.

I'm not really sure how to stabilize myself and my eating. I'd like to. I'd like to stay right here.